You drape over my body ‘til nothing is left bareThey say you’re my protector but insecurity’s buried there
I raise my arms but my hands cannot claspThis shroud is unyielding, silencing questions that are asked
I know not how you grew so heavy, so large…on to the groundNo escape coz you surround me blocking light and blocking sound
So, where I go, you’re there too, from you, there’s no reprieveI fight to find an opening, some new air for me to breathe
My movements are restricted, such is the power of the shroudYou hold me back, you keep me down, silent fear is shouting loud
You have owned, you have possessed me, I am a lesser form of ‘self’But now the time is drawing near I need to find that someone else
I can feel your grip is loosening, how long you’ve held that powerIf I can put the fear aside discarding years, then now’s my hour
For I’ll no longer cower to you, your control will crack and fallAnd I will step into the light with arms outstretched towards the call
And I will throw you to the ground bunched heavily at my feetThen I will step away from you, no more can you defeat
The world is fresh and unfamiliar, the air is clear; the ground, it bendsBut I will write my own story from now until it ends
Gillian Richards